I find myself using the word "Overwhelmed" a lot these days. I'm pretty sure I've been overwhelmed for about a year now, and it's starting to take it's toll. My house is a wreck. My mind is a wreck. My attitude is a wreck.
Maybe my new word should be "wreck."
Anyway, one of the things I've been overwhelmed with lately is my appearance. I consider myself VERY lucky to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight and to have the option of wearing about 90% of my old clothes (Funnily enough, weight does not = body shape/clothes size). I keep thinking if maybe I could feel like I look good, I would feel a little better mentally and then possibly be able to clear out some of the fog of negativity in my brain.
This is easier thought than done.
It's bad enough that my hair - already thinned by a bum thyroid and years of non-existent Vitamin D - continues to fall out in a predictable but annoying post baby shed. So it doesn't style as easily or the same as it used to, and every morning is like a game to try and figure out if I can get from the shower to the bedroom where the hairdryer lives faster than my five hairs will dry in a wonky, non-attractive shape.
And then there's makeup. I touch my face. All. The. Time. So any makeup I ever apply, I generally forget within an hour and promptly rub it all off. Or smear it. And that looks awesome. Plus, I never really learned how to apply it (please, let's do try to forget the nightmare of a Mary Kay party in teaching anyone how to put on makeup that looked more like 80's hooker than appropriate to me), so I don't know what colors, what products, what anything to use/do. So, I just don't. If I'm feeling fancy, I'll put on some tinted lip gloss. WOO!
Finally, the clothes. OMG. The clothes. I went shopping this weekend and while I saw tons and tons of cute things, I can't figure out how to dress me. I really, really, really would love it if Clinton and Stacy from "What Not to Wear" would just bring me on and show me what I should wear. They don't even have to give me the money to buy the clothes. I just need to know what I can wear! I think I probably wear clothes that are too big for me a lot of times, and I never wear pants that are actually the proper length, so I always look sloppy. I never have looked like my neat friends - Sara, Melissa, Kerrieann - who all look like they just walked out of a catalog of some sort. It's a bit disgusting. Even when someone has a quirky style of dressing, like a friend of mine in Texas, it is quirky in a very neat, put together, interesting and awesome kind of way, not in a weird way. I know I can't dress like she does because it's not my personality, but I don't know how she knows that she can put certain things together and they'll look GOOD, even if unconventional. I'm so special that if i don't have a damn diagram showing me what shirt and pants go together with what little accessories, then I just look silly.
This is why you will always see me in jeans and t-shirts.
So there you go - a little peek into my messy mind. And I guess if you're good with written pictures, possibly a peek in to my messy closet as well.
In the words of Sister Maria - oh, help.
7 comments:
I'm not calling you a liar. Really, I'm not... BUT you always look SO stinkin' adorable that I can't get on board with this update. You are too pretty to worry so much!
I'd use the word plagarism but I haven't published this post yet! I fantasize about Stacy and Clinton, too. But you're a lot closer to cute than I am!
I have to agree that you do always look cute. I've always said,"Man, I wish I had that outfit". No lie, but don't worry. Sometimes life is just frustrating, trust me, I don't have any really maternity clothes that fit so I'm right there with you in baggy clothes. My excuse is I'm still technically a college studuent. Don't worry, Sara will laugh when she reads your blog because I always tell her she looks really good too. My theory on knowing what looks good together, just try something. Black is a good nutral along with blue and brown. Match those with primary colors and other colors and you're good to go!! Just try, you won't die. I know!! I'm the same way!!
Although I agree with Lauran and Biz - you ALWAYS look too cute - I can understand the feeling. I was so there after I had Holdyn!!! My solution? Change my hair. That always makes me feel better whether it be a cut, color whatever. I love to change my hair, almost to the point of hair ADD or schizophrenia. But hey, it's not too expensive and it always grows back...something to think about.
Before I comment, remember that I am entirely too cynical and curmudgeonly to compliment people just to make them feel better. That said, have you any clue how often I have looked at pictures of you & Lilah and thought, "GOD! I hope I look half that good after I have this baby?" I'd kill to have skin that looks like yours - even without makeup. But, if it's Stacy and Clinton you want, maybe we could talk them into doing another one of those college reunion shows and we could both be rock stars for a day. OR, maybe soon after this young 'un pops out, we'll come to Greenvizzle and you and I can go shopping at the big, yellow mall and channel our inner cuteness. Until then, you're fabulous. Kiss your reflection. :)
Thanks for the compliment. I don't always feel so cute, so I try really hard...maybe that's why. You just haven't seen me in the work-out pants where you can see my too tight underwear cutting into my fatty hips and tummy. Actually, no one has seen me, but now many know my secret. And I only dress up once a week, so I only have to have one thing that looks presentable. Again thanks, but I usually feel exactly what you just wrote. But I think you look awesome.
LOL - Y'all really know how to make a girl feel better! Of course, I only post the photos of me that look the least crappy, so if you were to see me on a daily basis, you would probably have a different opinion :-D
And Lauran, you belong on the list of "Catalog Cute" friends, too. How could you not - you make your own style books each season with the same ease that I pour a glass of water. Baby brain just limited my typing to the last three people I saw in person. LOL
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